Cocoon

I glance at the watch
It is 4:30
I slowly turn to look out the window
It is dawn
The night slowly turning to day
Dark clouds depart to make way for the light
Colors of the sky change
With every other ray of fresh morning sunlight touching the clouds
Hear the birds chirp and greet the new day
Their songs increase in intensity
Faint imaginations of a red cocotil calling to win the female float in my drowsy head
I imagine him competing against another cocotil whose eyes aim for the same female
But probably the man knows his feelings are real and is relentless
Nevertheless i am not worried for i know for certain
True love always wins
But as the day creeps in
And the arms of clock move forward
I wish i could push time behind
But no
But yes
I lay down and wrap my comforter around me like a cocoon around a caterpiller
I close my eyes and am ready to bid goodbye for a good morning nap
I wish i could stay up to watch this morning glory and pen it down
However i need sleep
It is morning
And it is time for me to go to bed
Good morning to you!

Late night song

I would climb
And make my bed up high
Above in the sky
To be there with you
Come to see the stars with me
We can try to count till we fall asleep
In each others arms
Love needs time

Come with me
Let me show you my love
My heart feels weak
Without you
Dreams look void when you are not there
I long to see your face everytime

Come climb upon the clouds
To this bed
Lie with me
Let us share our dreams
Will this last forever

Come the time is short
And soon the clock will strike 12
If our love is real
The magic will remain
Like a wish come true
Wished on the shooting star

Love Is Like Farming

Love Is Like Farming

"You plant a seed, you hope it grows. Sometimes, the weather isn't always on your side, but with a little bit of luck, something beautiful can come from it. And that's the type of love that I want to find, and hopefully this journey's gonna get me there." - Farmer and Bachelor Chris Soules

The walk

I walked for miles
And miles
In the sun
In search for spiritual awakening
I wanted to recover from the breakup and some confusing post breakup events
It had been long since i had been to a church
This trip led me to the church down the street
I wanted to be on the right track
On the right standing with God
I was having issues in my relationship
And i needed help to fix this
There was this peace and joy that fills when in church
I remembered the place where my heart beĺongs
I walked back home
Passed the flowers
I did not have the answer at the moment
But i knew it was there
On meeting my girlfriend
I felt the same as if nothing changed
But there was a hope
For better days

Roommate tag

It is funny
how i never knew this
I assumed that my room mate
knew I was gay
but it turns out that she did not.

I can make it out
from her actions and the way she talks to me.
She is an Asian, with conservative ideas on the matter of marriage
If she knew I was gay, I guess she would have never roomed with me.

I do kind of like her (#wt*!?)
Now that I am getting over with my ex
I guess it is alright to start a new relation (Woo wo I am going pretty fast)
Sometimes I feel I've got to give myself some time
But when I see these straight girls I easily forget the rules
(I should do my best to keep this relation platonic for awhile)

Now about to my roommate ..
She is pretty and a total girly girl
But my night mare ..
Her boyfriend
who hates lesbians!

I have decided not to tell her about my sexual orientation
Because it would ruin this friendship
and make her feel betrayed
I want to be good friends with her

Maybe later in the future
after i move out to my new apartment
If she finds out about my orientation
then she can choose
if she still would like to be friends or not

Four stages of love

Flowers to show love
Flowers to give her a smile and
Flowers to reach to her heart

Each conveys a messege
That the sender may not have got a chance to say

I chose tulips
Pink is caring
Red is declaring love
White is forgiveness
Yellow is hopeless in love

And i gave them all to her
At different times
But did she decode the message?

Zinnia

While i was planting them i was thinkng of her. I was missing her. Few days later it was the first day of spring and i saw the first clover. Few days later i decided to confess my love and that is when things got weird and we brokeup. Days passed and my plant grew. I watered it daily and smiled when i saw a new leaf on it. It brought thoughts of her.
I had not know then that i was planting Zinnia. But the day i found out it gave me a startle, for zinnia means thoughts of an absent friend